12.6.08

Reef Blower!


I took a job working maintenance on campus for the summer and beyond. I feel kind of stupid because had I known I was going to take this road I could have started a week sooner. But I am happy and thankful for everyone who was praying for the job situation. The pay isn't great and I have to wear pants (as in no shorts) in the heat, but I am looking forward to working outside and maybe shedding a few pounds this summer. And who knows maybe I'll find out just how tan I can get (or red, I'm not sure).

This morning was my third day on the job and definately the most enjoyable. I walked outside and found Cecil at 7:00 and then waited until 8:00 for something to do. I was introduced to edging with a weed eater, not the easiest of tasks. But I lost no toes, so that's good. Right before I finished for the day I got to play with a leaf blower. If you have seen the SpongeBob episode "Reef Blower" you can imagine the fun I was having.

new blog


You are seeing this because I just added mobile blogging to my page. I'm not sure if I'll ever use it, but now I have the option to blog from my Blackjack. The world is getting smaller, you had better watch out.

3.6.08

Still Alive


So I haven't forsaken the blog. I've been busy preparing for my summer course--Counseling Ethics and Professional Ethics. A lot of reading was involved, and as much as I hate to admit it I am a slow reader, so it takes me a while to get it all done. But I finished the reading and get to take my first of two tests tomorrow. This also means that my mp3 player has been growing out of my ears lately. But I'm really bummed. My 20 gig mp3 player decided it needed to reformat itself and so I lost a huge collection of music. grrr. grrr. It almost makes me want to cry. But luckily I have a back up--a Sony mini disk player. It is outdated technology now, but secretly I love my mini disk player. It reminds me of all the little toys I had when I was little....good times, good times. In the midst of my studying I did get the opportunity to listen to some great music and I have decided to share some of it with you, or at least the lyrics. There is kind of a theme in these songs of saving people. Is my messiah complex showing through?

The Scientist by Coldplay
Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets,
and nurse me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
And tell me you love me,
come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles, chasing tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
Ooooohhhhhhh

Say It Ain't So by Weezer
Oh yeah
Alright
Somebody's Heine'
Is crowdin' my icebox
Somebody's cold one
Is givin' me chills
Guess I'll just close my eyes

Oh yeah
Alright
Feels good
Inside

Flip on the tele
Wrestle with Jimmy
Something is bubbling
Behind my back
The bottle is ready to blow

Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker
I can't confront you
I never could do
That which might hurt you
So try and be cool
When I say

This way is a waterslide away from me
That takes you further every day
So be cool

Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker

Dear Daddy
I write you in spite of years of silence
You've cleaned up, found Jesus, things are good or so I hear
This bottle of Steven's awakens ancient feelings
Like father, stepfather, the son is drowning in the flood
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker

Save Me by Unwritten Law
Had a bad day,
don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart,
breaks apart,
with your big mouth.
And I'm sick of my sickness
Don't touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.

You can't save me,You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wakeup call,
And everything,
everything's my fault.

Went to the doctor,
and I asked her,to make this stop.
(whoa)Got medication,
a new addiction,
Fucking thanks a lot.
I had to relapse, I'm bad at rehabs
It ruins everything. (whoa)
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
and everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything,
and everything's my fault.

And I'm a death threat
haven't slept yet,
Baby why the wake up call
I'm the bad boy tell the tabloids
everything's my fault.

Whoa whoa whoa yeah,
write it write it,
Whoa Whoa whoa everything's my fault,
everything's my fault.

I went to heaven,
but couldn't get in,
For what I have done.
I said please take me,
they said you're crazy
you had too much fun.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call
,and everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, everything's my fault.You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
(everything's my fault)
You can't save me,You can't change me,
Everything's my fault.

Wonderwall by Oasis (though I am in love with the cover version by Bryan Adams)
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?And after all
You're my wonderwall
Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I doAbout you now
And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how
I said maybeYou're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

24 by Switchfoot
Twenty four oceans
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures
Twenty four tries
Twenty four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs
At the end of the day

Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing
Spirit take me up in arms with You
And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses still twenty four strong
See I'm not copping out
not copping out
not copping out
When You're raising the dead in me

Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now

And You're raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
But I want to be one today
Centered and true

I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now
And You're raising the dead in me

I want to see miracles,
see the world change
Wrestled the angel,
for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause

I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And You're raising the dead in me
Twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts.
I'm not copping out.
Not copping out.
Not copping out.

Well, I can only hope you have made it this far! I am a huge believer in the therapeutic power of music. Music can bring produce an emotion with such grace and recall a memory like the voice of an angel. Each of these songs reminds me of a specific time and specific place in my life that has great meaning for me. If you feel moved to send me a comment, let me know what song in your life moves you.